Jason Mraz I won't give up Lyrics

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So if you have followed my blog for awhile, you know that this song comes up at the end of hard days with Precious Maryn.  Today was a hard day.  I love ending hard days with this ballad because I go to bed at peace with myself and my child.  For a couple years now, I have turned to this song to finish a hard day with my adopted child who comes from a hard place and struggles.  Sometimes I have listened to it through tears.  Other nights it was with her in my lap, rocking.  Tonight I listen with a smile on my face.  Today was a hard day with P but we got through it and instead of re-hashing all the aweful stuff.....I'm reflecting on the wonder and the blessing and the shared jokes and the fun....and the love.  Precious Maryn and I love each other so, so much.  Partly because of the pain....and mostly because of the prayer.  Adoptive moms out there.....add this song to your tools.  It helps.



I had a long day today with work and life....and tonight I found peanut butter on my IPAD keyboard (from Precious) and a fly swatter in her cowgirl boot and I think her shorts are still floating in the pool.  She went directly from car to pool after a 4 hour sit at a baseball game parking lot taking tickets with mom.  She would rather be somewhere miserable with me than anywhere without me.  That says alot, I think.



Good golly I love that girl.  And she makes me so, so tired and often crazy.  She adds exponentially more work to every day of my life......and I am seriously not exaggerating.  Precious Maryn is special.  She is wounded.....and she suffers....but because of that she has wisdom and depth that I just stand in awe of.  Precious Maryn matters.  We all matter, yes.  But this girl.....in proportion to her cost in energy and time and everything.....she is a Rock Star.  Larger than Life.  She is destined for greatness.  I will likely not see gratitude this side of Heaven but I have the joy and privelege to get to walk along side her for the journey.....cuz she is happiest when she is right beside me.

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