He is Greater.....John 3:30 says He must become greater, I must become less"

Today I went to my local grocery store.  I needed stuff for our week.  Milk and eggs and cheese are always on the list.  Josiah likes to add chocolate and toys because he can use our "Alexa" to add things.  Roger is travelling this next week so our menu changes when he is away.  When Roger is away, we eat lots more chips.  Chips are medicine for Precious.....and indirectly for me, too.  I had a list when I went to the store. As I was checking out, the sweet young girl at the register said, "I think you know my mom".....and so we started to talk.  Usually I don't talk to the check out people because I am preoccupied about how much I spent, or wondering what I forgot, or thinking maybe they are judging me for what I put in my cart.  Stop it.  I know you do it too. My cashier and I agreed that I do know her mom.  She is a foster/adopting mom and a counselor for trauma kids.  I also know her 2 aunties who are a  nurse/mis...

I may be coming to the end of my blogging adventure.  I'm not sure but I am beginning to wonder.  Many days, I have things I want to write out.  Good things.  Important things.  I decide at the end of the day to not write them and that makes me sad.  I am afraid that the fear of man and the concern for who will be critical or condemning seems to have taken hold of my writing voice.  God gave me this platform about 10 years ago and I think I have used it as well as I could to give Him Glory.  In this present day in which we live, there are so many harsh and intense political positions and inflammatory arrows being shot around at the far left, the far right, the supporters, the haters.  Most days I don't know what I believe in any more, other than Jesus and how He lived and why He died....and why He rose again from death to take His place in Heaven....I don't know anything safe to stand on except love.  Love always wins.  Social me...

On this Sabboth day, I have rested.  I took a walk, I took a nap, and I watched some football and some crime drama.  One of the commercials was for the annual Charlie Brown Halloween show.  I do not like Halloween at all, but I do love all things Charlie Brown.  The Charlie Brown episodes of Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas are special to me.  I would rearrange my schedule to be home to watch these whenever possible.  They take me back to a sweet  place of childhood.  Simple times, easy answers...... Tonight my childhood best friend called me to ask a simple question.  We don't talk often....but hearing her voice felt like watching Charlie Brown Halloween all over again.  I could pour out my thoughts to her and say things I don't say to anyone I currently see every day.  Childhood is a big deal.  It is a sacred deal.  It is something that matters so much.  It is where memories are made, where ideals are f...

Today I had that day I sometimes write about.  It was mental health day for me....and so long coming.  I didn't get a whole week, like I wanted, but I got one really good day and for now, it is enough.  I will keep trying for the full week. After I got everyone up, dressed, fed, reviewed/edited/encouraged.....I came back home and did a quick pick up, well, it was an hour but whatever.  I made comfort food breakfast:  peanut butter and honey on toast, and good coffee.  I grabbed my bible and left the house.  I shopped at our itty bitty farmers market, which is only going to offer fresh and organic produce for a few more weeks, and got a huge bag of fresh veggies.  That, to me, is mental health.  I feel wellness when I buy local, fresh vegetables, when I check out books at the library, when I wave at my neighbors.....mental health looks lots of different ways.  I drove out of town to a nearby nature park because I felt like God had a ...

I sat with the Lord this morning for a bit.  Not long enough, but awhile.  I had my bible open and was praying/reading/listening which is sort of our thing.  I was trying to settle my heart before I started my week.  Last week I did the same thing, after the insanity of NFL kneel vs. stand....and all the feelings that stirred in me.  Last Monday I did the same thing.  I sat with the Lord until He and I made sense of it and I could start my day.  This week, I sat there, trying to settle the frustration of plans that change.  I had designated this week to time for me.  Exercise.  Cooking.  Cleaning.  Organizing.  Being in my home by myself and doing what felt good.....for me.  Unfortunately, Josiah developed a fever yesterday and had a really long night of coughing and restlessness.  So this morning, I sat with the Lord to reset all my buttons because there would be no personal time today.  I would care for...