thoughts at the end of my birthday.....
I have said to people lately, that this year, as I turn 50, I plan to have a celebration and an emotional break-down every day. In the same year that I turn 50, my oldest will graduate from high school and go to college and essentially leave the nest. My baby will finish daycare and start kindergarten......and I will come to terms with being old-er. These new decade birthdays are kind of a big deal. 20, 30, 40, 50......at 20 I was figuring out who I was. At 30 I was building my family, at 40 I was embracing my life, my choices, my place in God's plan.....so what will 50 bring? Only He knows. I expected to feel depressed about this birthday but instead, I am excited. I am refreshed. I am ready. I'm not young any more and you know what? That's ok. With age comes experience and a seasoning that deserves respect and due diligence. I've arrived at that place. I am wiser than many. I am expected to ...